I can now appreciate the build up to this moment. There were times in the beginning that terrified me and I often felt that I was in way over my head. There seemed to be a clear understanding of the courses and their outcomes, yet I often felt overwhelmed and confused. I considered quitting many times in the first few months but what I feared more was my supposed inability or unwillingness to learn something completely out of my comfort zone. You see, my mother died this year of Alzheimer's and so the thought that I was not learning scared me more than the idea that I might fail at what I was attempting. It is no longer a matter of 'I should keep learning,' but rather, 'I must keep learning.'
The pumping up of my digital literacy skills has made me so much more comfortable and efficient. Things that frustrate me now are simply things I know I will develop proficiency with if given more time. During the creation of the Learning Lab website I was a little disappointed that I did not have more images and content to move over from my blog. I wish I had taken a closer look at the end Capstone Projects of earlier cohorts so that I could have prepared a little better. That said, I must admit that I am enjoying the creative and problem solving aspects of the project. Now that it is coming together, I am feeling a sense of accomplishment. I am so grateful for this experience. My final reflections have been the innovative way in which the program follows the TPACK instructional model. Or perhaps I was working on my TPACK page of my Capstone and felt inspired. Hmmm...
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